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Finally I’ve got something to write about :)

So hello! :) , I know I haven’t write as much as I did before, but then again, there’s really nothing much to write… Until now.

Your also probably wondering why theres a picture of Mean Girls on my blogpost. I’ve just finished watching Mean Girls, its such an amazingly funny smart movie. I realised back then (even now at times) there was just so much drama in my life! too much even. All started in highschool, I’ve beginning to understand that drama is not worth it, it is such a waste of time. PLUS it makes things so much more complicated, plain and simple its just stupid. I must admit that in the past, I’ve been through lots of drama and frankly I do not like it, cos someone always ends up getting hurt and hurt and hurt, the extreme drama might as well be at a cost of someone’s life. I get it now. I get all of it. Id always have this picture in my head that once you leave high school all that drama bullsugar will stop… honestly it doesn’t. It follows you around at every age. HOWEVER, I’ve began to know that some people just cause drama for the sake of making something so dramatic, and getting attention. Its just silly, some move like that could cost all that years of friendship. Is it really worth throwing it all away? Really? My friends and family means the world to me, its good to know that you have someone you can always trust and talk to about, with any situation and know that they would always be there , and they’ve got your back no matter what.  Why should we care what other people thinks of us? Its funny how we care so much about the things that people who doesn’t care about us says, but not for those who does.

Living in Bangkok as a teenager, who goes to an international school and have international friends, your bound to be sucked into a social life, regardless. Whats really popular here is “going out” . Party and party and dancing and dancing and all that nightlife stuff. Were famous for it, not going to lie, Bangkok night life is pretty fun. However the more you go out, the more you know people and theres more chance that you will be sucked into one of the dramas, and yes… the more you will be talked about. I don’t go out so much, but not going to lie, that I used to have this formspring.com stuff (which is like an open door for someone to get cyber bullied) – Also most of the so-called questions are anonymous. I’ve been called things like sluts, whore, ugly … all the negative stuff that human nature can think off, and I do not know who said it, frankly I do not want to know , I don’t even know why. So I shut it down, there is absolutely no point on wasting my time on negativity.

Why. Why some people can be so judgmental about another person without getting to know them? They don’t give chances do they. I know why, its easier to just judge someone rather than getting to know them. Which would certainly leads back to drama. I’m not going to say that I don’t gossip… I do, but I try not to cos I know one day it will come back and bite me. Karma. So don’t call me a hypocrite. All these stuff I’m writing about is what I’m starting to see in life. There’s so much more in life other than drama, other than going out for the sake of going out. I don’t go out so much, but there was a time where I went out quite a lot. I enjoyed going out back then. Recently I’m starting to feel that I’m going out for the sake of just going out, that topic gets boring. Or maybe I’m just boring hahaha. Now I rather spend my night having dinner, and maybe a few drinks and hang out with your friends other than going out partying, be around people you care about, vice versa.  Not saying that I don’t like going out, I do… just not all the time. Occasionally, just not all the time. Yes, I’m back to my boring self, and I’m fine with it :).

People calling other person ugly. Ugly is such an ugly word. Mean word. That word could change a person’s life, and not in a good way. “Not everybody is born with beautiful good looks” – I will tell you, that is a lie, everybody is born and they’re beautiful. Its just the way that we look at them, the way we define the word beautiful. A girl can have the most simplest of looks but has one of the best biggest personality in the world. Kids my age don’t really look at personality, cos that’s far beyond of what they’re thinking off. All about looks (most of the time) .

I wish people would see the world in a different angle, see it in different perspective. Live life worry free, don’t worry about not having a boyfriend/girlfriend, your time will come. Believe in that and it will come, maybe the best is saved for the last. Who knows? All I’m saying is that there’s more to life than … drama, boyfriends/girlfriends, gossiping… all that stuff. When your time comes, it will come :)

Another reason as too why I’m blogging so much stuff into one post. I’ve watched a youtube video the other day, it was this guy called Luan in one of his vids “You don’t need a boyfriend to feel good” . I remember him saying ” blog all this shit on one post, express it all out, then write a another blog about sometime else, write it out and leave it ” (something like that, or far beyond that I don’t exactly remember all the words).  :)

Such a long long post. Good luck with life :)

xxx Em

As a teenager.

I wanted to write this for awhile now, but never had the chance to or I was really lazy :P

ANYWAYS. I’m 18 years old, I’m pretty much a young adult now. I should have the right to make some choices on my own, its part of growing up isn’t it? Making choices? I know how our parents doesn’t want us to make the wrong choice (aka a mistake) BUT. We would never learn the lesson of life without making the mistake ourselves. Its a fact, its a the fact that sometimes some our loving parents is trying to prevent us from doing that. I know well WE know that they mean well, but sometimes its just.. its just… its just a choice that we… as a teenager have to make for ourselves.

I would like to tell you something. If you keep saying NO to your kids, they will keep wanting to do it, eventually … trust me .. eventually your child would have this whole other side that you do not know of, and they would explode. I’ve seen a lot of this. Hey, I may be only 18 but I am not stupid, I know exactly what it is like to have a parent, especially my mum who loves me sooo much that the love would never ever end. I consider myself as ‘lucky’ to have a mother who loves me so much, because I know for a fact that some parents don’t give enough love to their children, they didn’t raise their children with love… but money. Its not good enough.  True? I think so.

Any who, my point is. EVERYONE needs boundaries. EVERYONE. Everyone needs their freedom, that’s what life is all about. Everyone needs to venture through their own experiences and finding new ones, at a certain time these new experiences can be found with your family, friends… Most of the time its about finding them on your own, that’s what would make you, YOU! Those experiences that you’re gaining independently, is almost like a path that would lead to you your destiny, sure there might be some bumpy roads on the way or pit stops… In the end it would lead you the same destiny that has been put for you, not by your parents… but by you.  I’m pretty certain that this is what many many parents are scared off. Their loving child/children making their own choices, making their own mistakes, gaining their own life experiences… they’re scared of letting go. I mean if your kid is a teen, don’t let go completely cos that would be a mess. Let go, let them have fun, with rules. Hey! isn’t that what curfews are made for??? Meet them half way. Don’t expect that you’re gonna always get what you want… that’s not the way of life. I know I know things might be different when you were younger, but remember this… times change. Its not your kids fault if they want to go and have a night out with friends… its not your kids fault that their social life is this way. You gotta give them leverage.  If your kid is a responsible type, LET THEM!  You know your child more than anyone in this world. I may be bias, but I do have a point… and you know its true. If they’re a good kid, they would know that you want to protect them from everything (the thing is … you can’t even if how hard you try to… you just can’t – like I mentioned above sometimes they need to make their own mistake and learning from it)

If you keep building the walls around your child, THEY WILL TRY TO BREAK IT DOWN ONE WAY OR ANOTHER. They want to see what life has to offer… and that’s not a crime. By building all these walls … everything might just back fire. Instead of knowing whats right and whats wrong, they might not see it. They might start to have sex at a young age, drinking, doing drugs (these days its not even a surprise, but it could be worst) even committing crimes. Parents who has daughters, I know that you would be extra protective, tell them. Tell them about the stuff behind these walls… When the walls comes down the best that you can do is tell them ” Be careful, Enjoy life and I love you ” . They will know what you mean. TRUST ME.  You give them life, let them live it. If you raise them well, they will know and always keep in mind about your love. ALWAYS. Teens, we might not be the best at showing to our parents that we always think about them… but we do. I do. Sometimes we might not show that we feel guilty about something, deep down inside we do.  If you love them, they will love you. Its the equation :)

Have a think about what I’m trying to say. Times Changes. Things Change. Methods Changed.

(So this is a pretty long blog post… but I just have to say it)

Mum… If you’re reading this. Can I go for a sleepover tomorrow and I’ll be back home before 9am! :) Please Please Please :) *puppy eyes*  - http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Fot5P5ZxuG8

Hehehehehe.

Be safe, Be healthy , Be happy. AND SMILE AND LAUGH!! :)

Em xx

So Chinese New Year was yesterday…

AND.. Guess what? I ended up going to the hospital for it.  Around like 9, me and my mum went to have dinner at soi 38. Then came back home, arriving at home for like 20 mins. I started to have these small rash on my arm, at first I didn’t think much of it, probably a mosquito bites or something. NOOO! It started growing on my leg, my back, all over my arm pretty much all over my body. My mum gave me an anti-allergy pill.. not better. So a trip to the hospital it is…  since it was around 11pm-ish. Theres bearly anyone at the hospital, so they sent me to ER. They took me to the bed and let my lie there, after a few minutes the doctor came to examine me, told them to give me 2 different shots, one for anti-allergy and the other one for like prevent it growing more… (don’t know how to say it lol). So they were observing me for 2 hours, then when it got better I was discharged and go home! :)
At the Cashier, it was so empty. I had this picture in my about resident evil… pretty scary… hospital at night is pretty spooky! haha.  So Chinese new year I spent it on the Hospital ER bed.

So I hope you guys are having a lovely new year! (The Chinese anyways! XD)

Be safe, Be healthy, Be Happy.

xx Em

I can actually COOK!

Like the title! I have discovered that I can cook :) ! I’m super happy! Whats funny? Even my mum was surprised (like :O!)  that I can cook.. edible food. (haha)

My Day: My attempt was to wake up at 8.00am but that failed and I woke up at 10.30am, then I hit the gym, clean the house, shower and went grocery shopping for tonight’s dinner. When you’re buying food that you’re going to cook, I personally find it really fun. Doing it yourself is fun , just put your headphones on and shop! Anyways after my foodland trip, i went to Villa at J-ave JUST to get rosemary! Since rosemary was out in foodland … great! Then came home and start cooking.

Whats on the Menu? Chicken Mushroom Cream , Saute Potatoes & Salad. VERY VERY VERY EASY and SIMPLE to make.

For the Chicken Mushroom Cream -
1. THE CHICKEN. Season the chicken breast with Salt and Pepper,     then heat the pan and fry it until it has that nice golden brown colour. Put in a plate and foil it to keep it warm.
2. THE SAUCE. Put some oil and saute the shallots until its slightly  gold, then put in the mushroom fry until its tender and slightly brown. After that put in 2 teaspoon of white wine and scrape the brown bits off, put in the chicken stock and stir until reduced by half. Then with the heavy cream and chives. Put till simmer. Put the chicken in and cover the chicken with sauce.. do that for couple of minutes – WALAA! You got ur dinner!

For the Saute Potatoes – Believe it or not, I look it up on youtube and followed the master Chef Gordon Ramsey on how to make them. Its very simple.  Here’s the link incase you guys are interested – http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=hVaNAMFbGT0 … Salad well simple! ;)

ANYWAYS. I might add the outcome is not at all bad! My mum enjoyed it! So hopefully I have made this day special for her, and I’m going to start cooking more ! By the way, the Chicken Mushroom Cream recipe was inspired by the Movie Julia&Julie. Its an absolutely terrific movie! I enjoyed it. Well anyways there was a part that Julie was cooking creamed mushroom and that hit me like a lighting and inspired me to cook it for my mum tonight!

I hope everyone has a lovely weekend! Be safe, Be healthy and absolutely be.. HAPPY :D